The Laws of Attraction

According to science theory, for magnets, opposite poles attract and like poles repel. This apparently is true for attraction between two humans. Well of course the first thing you look at and are attracted to is obviously the looks. In general, if your face is symmetrical, you have a smaller waist to hip ratio, thick lips etc, makes you look more attractive. But apparently, we not only choose our mates with our eyes but with our nose as well. Yes ladies, you've heard it before, we sniff pheromones. We detect healthiness of the opposite sex using our sense of smell. They even conducted an experiment that confirms this. When the opposite sex has a different immune system/ produces different antibodies than you, you are more likely to be attracted to him.

Ok truth be told, I wasn't planning to leave you with just science theory for this post. I chose this topic specifically because I am at war with myself. Why doesn't he like me? Am I not attractive? isn't my pheromone attractive to him? lol Am I boring? (I might be slightly boring if I was to start a post on love/crush with science theory. lol). To cut the story short, I have a crush on this guy who works on the same building. I confessed using an anonymous number and he found out in the end. We flirted on text and got to know each other. Well... sorta, I did most of the opening up but he was just being a closed book. So basically, he got to know me and I don't know him...at all. However, a week ago all this stopped and I am not starting any more conversations unless he initiates it. Since he hasn't texted at all, everything is now on a standstill and very very awkward. We've been avoiding each other in the office. *sigh* I can't imagine how awkward it would be to see him at work.

If my non-existent love-life was a soundtrack it would go from Hey Na Na (Katie Herzig) to You Got It Bad (Usher) to Animal (Neon Trees) to Not Pretty Enough (Kasey Chambers).

His texts used to be my happy pills. The reason I am smiling for no reason. The reason every bad moments don't bother me. The reason I wake up with a smile everyday. Now, his silence is like a grenade that is blowing up my heart and soul into pieces. I keep wondering why doesn't he like me? how did it all stop? what went wrong?

Blahh.. I don't even like myself being this emo. It all has to stopppp.. I need a new happy pill. Find me a happy pill so I can get my mind off him.

A true friend will be there for you through thick and thin, good and bad times. It isn't too difficult to be friends with someone when life filled with happiness and peace. It is something altogether different to have a friend who shares your sadness and stay beside you even when things aren't going well. When strong friendships exist, mutual caring is evident. Doing things for one another, without expecting to have something done in return, is a sign of genuine friendship. So is being thoughtful and listening to friends when they need to open up. When a friend is going through troubled times, being there to encourage them, even if it’s just being a shoulder to cry on or to simply listen, can make all the difference in the world.

Even true friends are still human and because they're human they still can make mistakes. Forgiveness is essential in friendships. Accepting a friend even though they may make a mistake shows them that you respect them enough to realize they're human. No one is perfect. A true friend accepts you, faults and all, though. A genuine friend understands that you make mistakes.

When I think of true friends, I always think of you. Both of you. Even if I done something wrong in the past, you guys are still stick with me and never judge me for what I did. Not even a thing. And yes, of course I do regret for things I did. All the support that you’ve been given to me, made me realize that you care enough for me to accept me still. Most of my friends have left, because I misused and betrayed their trust and they just simply judge me that I am a bad person without even giving myself a chance to explain what the real situation really were. In fact, I'm just one of those people who never exist in their life any longer. At first, it hurts me to dead. But when I think back and look everything through, they are just like me. Talked bad things about their close friends behind their friends back, they judged their close friends without even knowing what was really going on and worst of all, they think they were perfect enough to think that they never do anything wrong and call their friends with inappropriate nicknames. When I think back, why should I be devastated losing that type of friends while I still have my true friends with me?

 A true friend who never judge me even when I was wrong. In fact, they do have the courage to tell me that I was wrong and lead me to the right way. Not just leaving me by simply judging and neglecting all the explanation that need to be said and left without saying anything. I guess a true friend is really hard to find indeed. And I'm glad that I have the two of you as my true friends and still have the strong friendship until today. I really appreciate for all the good times we had and soon going to have together. I love you and I promise that I'm going to take care of this friendship and never betray your trust just like I did before. Because without the two of you, it's like I'm losing a part of my life because you are part of my life. And I hope there's nothing could ever come between our friendship and may our friendship will be flourish day after day.

With lots of love,

Neesa Hazerin Hassan

Someone told me, that some of the greatest people in the world, the movers and shakers of the world, are who they are today because they keep a journal. Everyday in their lives they record their thoughts, their feelings, their emotions so that they are able to think back and reflect in their own words. Some might say when you review the words you wrote down, it is almost like having an out of body experience. I must confess though, I am not much of a journalist myself. I once owned a diary but only ended up writing teenage angst rantings in it for the first two days. I gave up and tossed my diary out. Why? Well.. You see, not only does it hurt to write all your teenage angst on paper, but reading it back is a double whammy of pain. Yes you might say I was an emotional kid back then but really aren't everybody emos at one point in their life? If you can point me to someone who wasn't emotional in their teen years, I'll give you ten bucks. ;)

So here I am reviving the blogging/journaling culture in me. Hopefully I get much more success this time.. as a wiser, less angry, happier adult. So to my two co-bloggers out there. I hope I will not be a one woman show in here, you two gotta write too mmkay?

Until my next post. Byee!!